He’s Got You

This journey called life isn’t always pretty. Rarely is it easy. Most often for me it’s been challenging. 

I’ve often made foolish mistakes bringing shame and guilt into my thoughts. Did I always stay strong in my faith and knowledge that I am truly loved by my Savior? No. 

Marriage has shown me and opened my eyes even more to the idea that God has always loved me. It’s been a hard concept through my failings and shortcomings but I know I have purpose. The fact that my husband can love me, despite my dirty past and constant struggles, shows me that God is always there. God is constant. He knows how my life will pan out. He knows if I will graduate college. He knows how many children we will have. He knows the very moment my heart will beat no more. 

I worked tonight and as I was bringing trays to people in their rooms, a person down the hall flatlined. That’s the closest I’ve been to death. It shook me up a bit as nurses and doctors ran down the hall as I stood paralyzed realizing the reality of what just happened. 

As I stood there, the thought in my head is God is Sovereign. He knows that person fully. He knew their weaknesses, strengths, failings and secrets. He knew from the beginning of time that moment when that person would flatline. Their life would be over. But He also knew that we would attempt to prevent that. Revive the person. 

I opened my Bible tonight to Galatians 1:15 

“But when God, who set me apart from birth and called me by His grace...” 

He’s known your story. He knows everything. So if you’re hurting, struggling, whatever..Lean on Him. He’s got you in His hands. He is our Cornerstone and foundation. He knows my story. He knows my current hurts and pains but I believe he is making something beautiful that I cannot see yet out of it just the same way when I was in the pit and could see no hope at the moment. 

Have faith dear one. God is gracious and merciful. He is preparing us for things unseen.