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my gratitude journal has been sitting on the shelf for months. i haven't actually journaled in many many moons. 

BUT

i try to keep the fleeting thoughts in my head and throw them at people while trying to encourage them to find the little joys as well..

my list that comes to mind..

my families constant care and concern for me, 

                        the way the sun shines in my man's eyes showing off all the beautiful colors within, 

                                                in-laws who pray over us and care and take care of us, 

moments of laughter with my husband as he cleans my hair out of the shower since I can't bend,

 

                popsicles, 

furious kicking and squirming from our dearly loved baby girl, 

                            opening her casket and seeing where she will be and knowing she will be safe, 

online psychology classes that are frustratingly easy, 

                                                        bubbles from dish washing soap, 

tears of healing and mourning at the same time, 

                                                cats that cuddle, 

keeping my pumpkin decorations out all year because they are pretty and I have no other decorations, 

            crying because I can't fathom God's love for me or the aspects of heaven and eternity, 

medicine that helps my multiple chronic illnesses, 

                                                coworkers that can make me laugh, 

nurturing 12 houseplants as a way of nesting for baby girl, 

                        the overwhelming surge of letters, care packages and gifts we have recieved, 

    opening the blinds every morning....

I don't want to bore you anymore. Life is really hard right now and I'm mildly drowning in responsibilities and crushing realizations that our girl will be born very soon. 

Perspective can change your life. 

"as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, yet possessing everything.." 

II Corinthians 6:10

until next time, 

🖤